Saturday, June 11, 2011

summertime.


"If you can look me in the eyes and tell me that I don't
matter, if you can kiss my lips and feel nothing inside of you;
if you can hold my body close and say you love her more, then you 
can walk out of my life forever. And please, don't look back."


"Well that's your opinon, isn't it?
And I'm not abotu to waste my time trying to change it."


"She'll chase you around for awhile, but there's going to be a 
day when she's going to stop running circles around you, she's
going to get over you, and at that moment, you'll wish you had
let her catch you."


"It's like this. You have to have the nicest jeans, or the cutest purse, 
or say the newest thing so that is catches on. You have to be skinny, 
you have to buy this, wear this, say that, be on his side, her side, be neutral, 
have straight white teeth, your hair can't be frizzy, and you can't wear that because
it just doesn't 'work' anymore. You have to go to parties, be friends with everyone, trust 
no one, pose like this, smile like that, tilt your head this way, and put your hang on your hip, 
because sadly, that's how it is."


"I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones
that haunt you the longest. So say it to them. Or say it to yourself
in the mirror, say it in a letter you'll never send or a book millions might
read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of 
voices saying 'I  could've, but it's too late now.' There is a time for silence, 
there is a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so 
clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it. I don't think you should wait, 
I think you should speak now."


"Before you, I was never so emotional. No one could make me cry, 
and no one made me think so hard. But now the tears flow like rain
from the saddest sky there is, and my frantic thoughts are tearing me apart.
I'm not going to let it end this way. I'm done feeling sorry for myself, and I'm 
done being broken, and I'm done letting you make me feel like that at all.
I'm goig to make myself stronger, no matter how I have to do it, 
because these thoughts are enough to drive someone insane, and I'm 
not going to let that be me anymore. I'm taking a stand."


"Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, 
the one person that can screw you over time after time, yet you always seem 
to give them another chance? And no matter how many times you say this is 
their last chance, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting
for them. The person you know you're better off without, but you can't find a way to let them go?"


"I need someone to prove to me that I'm worth it, really worth it to them.
Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same.
Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for 
someone to take a risk on me, to fight for me, to actually care enough to not let something go;
the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared.
I didn't realize it then, but I do now. I don't do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today...
today I realized that I can't keep waiting for you. I'm moving on, I can't stay in one place waiting. 
I can't be around you anymore. I'm not over it. I don't get over things fast, I never have, no matter how much I try to convince myself. I'll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, 
something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe
we could back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you'll get one more 
chance from me, maybe you won't."


"When you truly care for someone, you don't look at faults.
You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes. 
Instead, you fight for mistakes. You accept the faults and overlook 
the excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure.
There are rare chances that you will meet the person you love and who 
loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let it go.
That chance might never come your way again."


"Be thankful for heartbreak, for they were planned.
They come into your life just to reveal another layer
of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, 
tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, 
break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate 
and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do."


"Sometimes the road ahead is paved with anything but good intentions."


"I just want you to apologize for everything that you did, 
but until then I'm going to hold on and think that you have 
nothing to say you're sorry for because I think you're amazing
even though I shouldn't."


"If you never had anyone to always be there, 
well, now you do; because from what I hear
she will never really leave you."


"You'll never know how it feels to have the
one person who means everything to you;
make you feel like you're nothing."


"You have to get hurt. That's how you learn.
The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the 
hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought
the toughest battles. Because they've decided that they're not going to 
let anything hold them down, they're moving on."


"You can't waste time over missing something in the past.
Life changes, people grow up and people grow apart, 
and you accept that. Yet you still can't stop thinking of 
how good it used to be; afraid you'd never experience it again, 
afriad you've already live it and already lost it."


"I took a chance and followed my heart. It might 
not have been the smartest decision I've ever made
but the end result was worth it all. Do you know why?
I got you."


"If you asked me last year where I saw myself in a year, 
I could quickly tell you that this wasn't it.
Everything I am right now is nothing like I thought I would have been.
The way things are in general are nothing like I thought they would be. 
To see people I couldn't live without last year walk away from my life and become
strangers, to see people that were once strangers, mean more than the world to me.
Seeing time fly by in the blink of an eye and feeling like nothing every changes.
Feeling like everything has stayed the same through out these days, yet looking 
back at where I was around this exact time last year and every is different."


"It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. 
And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, 
but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. It just happens very fast, and things start 
to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really 
hard trying to see something, but I can't. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me."


"Three months ago, if you asked me, I would have told you 
that if you really love someone, you'd let them go. But now, 
I look at your, and I dream about you, and I see that I've been wrong. 
If you really love someone, I think you have to take them back."


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